June 15th - Whats wrong with me?

Today at work it was a 5 hour shift (made it to work on time today) and it felt like a flippen 18 hour shift. I could barely stand my feet hurt sooo bad! My legs were shaking and my whole body just felt achy. I've been doing 5 hour shifts for the last 4 days... so theres no reason it should hurt so bad today... if anything it should have been easier to work today. I looked at my calender and I'm supposed to be getting my period on the 17th... That could possibly be the reason I've been like this the last few days. I almost did cry by the end of my shift because my body hurt so bad. I felt like I had gone clubbing in the worst shoes ever... like high heeled stilettos for 8 hours... if you know what I mean...pain-central. I was also having alot of pressure pains down in my stomach/uterus area.

But I was wearing runners at work... I have no idea why it hurt so bad. I slept for a bit after work... around 2 hours. These are defiantly symptoms of my period coming along. ALSO i weighed myself and i'm back up at 205... wtffffff
Also prince charming bought me subway... just the way I like it... and the guy even bought me chocolate milk and a brownie because I was in so much pain. He knows that when I'm on my period chocolate makes me feel better lol. He knows me so well now that its insane... I mean does anyone know how you like your subway? Mine is VERY SPECIFIC.

Whole wheat bread
no olives, jalepinos, pickles, or meat.
I NEED southwest/sweet onion sauce.
parmesean cheese.
toasted cheese
etc..

Theres just so much to it and he knows it off by heart just from seeing me do it a couple of times. I also feel kind of sad that me and him havent been hanging out lately. No time to cuddle and be together since hes been working graveyards and I've been working everyday. Luckily after tomorrow I get a break from this job for 3 days while I work at my other job at the call center... that ones a little bit more bareable. I get thursday off. Pray for thursday to come faster.

I'm having such a bad week... :(

June 14th - Horrible day

I dont know what went wrong but it was definatly not my day. I'm usually very punctual and put togeather but today I was late for work... by half an hour! And I'm an opening cashier... there is no one else but me in the mornings. and i kept getting in trouble. It was for the littlest things! Everything I did was wrong and I was soooo frustraited and upset. It took everything inside me to keep myself calm. I felt like crying at the end of the day.

By the end of the day I came home and passed out because I was so exhausted.
I also found out today that my laptop charger is broken. I dont know what I'm going to do. A replacement one is 100 bucks... might as well buy a new laptop cause mine is so old. My charger will stop charging randomly and then my laptop will die right away after. I have to wiggle it and play around with it for 5 mins just to get it working again. What a pain... bad day today!

June 13th - Richmond night market

So... being the type of person who plans things the night before, I convinced prince charming to take me to the richmond night market. I had so much fun. On the way there I tried to hard to win tickets on the beat 94.5. But no luck :( lol Once when I did call in, I got put on air so I guess thats why I always phone in and think I actually have a chance.

Anyways so the night market was so much fun! It was neat looking at all the stuff. Prince charming bought me a new make up brush kit. It was expencive but to be honest, I've been using a crappy one for a year now. He bought me the WHOLE SET! I only have like 2 brushes that I was using but now I have so much more variety! Ever watch youtube and see all the professionals show you which types of brushes they use? Those are the ones he bought me :)
There was so much food there! I only had a 3$ cup of chow mein and I was happy lol. No fish balls for me :P
The trip home was tiering and prince charming got frustraited because he was trying to get us home... usually im the leader when it comes to directions but I fell asleep in the seat and of corse he didnt wake me lol. He works graveyards at one of his jobs and so by the time we got home... he had to start half an hour later... we sure cut it close! All that walking today did me good I bet!

June 12th - House party

So my parents had a house party with their friends. It was what ever. I wasnt into it too much. Mostly me and daisy just sat in my room until it died down around 3am. The next morning I have work... I've been working alot lately. I'm exhaused mentally and physically. Atleast I'll be able to save enough for our anniversary to go to victoria and such. My next pay check is going to be really good :)

June 11th - Video game

Today was prince charmings little brothers bday. I took him to future shop to get him a new game for his new x box. I dont understand gaming... not sure if I ever will lol. 70 bucks on one game? I'd rather buy clothes lol. But w.e makes him happy :P

June 10th - Waterslides!

So we went to the water slides today. I had no idea that my bathing suite was in such bad condition! It was so baggy from me not taking care of it. On our way home prince charming bought me a new bathing suite top so that worked out.
I had so much fun. Although it took us like 45 mins to get there, it was worth it to me. Spending him with him was so much fun. We went down some pretty fun slides and then just chilled in the hot tub. It reminded me of how much I miss swimming. I used to swim alot at the beginning of January. Almost every day. The chlorine was bad for my skin though... and the chlorine in my hair was a mess!

Oh and gosh! Walking up those big stairs to get to the top of the slides was insane! I felt so bad that I was out of shape. I was huffin and puffin by the time I got to the top. Blah

June 9th - 200 lbs.

I'm still 200 lbs. At least I HAVEN'T gone up... considering I've basically eaten a whole large pizza to myself in the last 2 days. I don't even want to try to calculate how many calories are in that. Where has my commitment gone? Why is it so hard for me now? I did it once... why cant I do it again?

Today is our anniversary. Maybe that's a sign... Start now.
This time exactly one year ago I was 170 lbs. It was after I met prince charming that I started slowly gaining the weight back... 5 pounds a month.
I need to do some deep thinking... Self reflecting.