Today at work it was a 5 hour shift (made it to work on time today) and it felt like a flippen 18 hour shift. I could barely stand my feet hurt sooo bad! My legs were shaking and my whole body just felt achy. I've been doing 5 hour shifts for the last 4 days... so theres no reason it should hurt so bad today... if anything it should have been easier to work today. I looked at my calender and I'm supposed to be getting my period on the 17th... That could possibly be the reason I've been like this the last few days. I almost did cry by the end of my shift because my body hurt so bad. I felt like I had gone clubbing in the worst shoes ever... like high heeled stilettos for 8 hours... if you know what I mean...pain-central. I was also having alot of pressure pains down in my stomach/uterus area.
But I was wearing runners at work... I have no idea why it hurt so bad. I slept for a bit after work... around 2 hours. These are defiantly symptoms of my period coming along. ALSO i weighed myself and i'm back up at 205... wtffffff
Also prince charming bought me subway... just the way I like it... and the guy even bought me chocolate milk and a brownie because I was in so much pain. He knows that when I'm on my period chocolate makes me feel better lol. He knows me so well now that its insane... I mean does anyone know how you like your subway? Mine is VERY SPECIFIC.
Whole wheat bread
no olives, jalepinos, pickles, or meat.
I NEED southwest/sweet onion sauce.
parmesean cheese.
toasted cheese
etc..
Theres just so much to it and he knows it off by heart just from seeing me do it a couple of times. I also feel kind of sad that me and him havent been hanging out lately. No time to cuddle and be together since hes been working graveyards and I've been working everyday. Luckily after tomorrow I get a break from this job for 3 days while I work at my other job at the call center... that ones a little bit more bareable. I get thursday off. Pray for thursday to come faster.
I'm having such a bad week... :(
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
June 14th - Horrible day
I dont know what went wrong but it was definatly not my day. I'm usually very punctual and put togeather but today I was late for work... by half an hour! And I'm an opening cashier... there is no one else but me in the mornings. and i kept getting in trouble. It was for the littlest things! Everything I did was wrong and I was soooo frustraited and upset. It took everything inside me to keep myself calm. I felt like crying at the end of the day.
By the end of the day I came home and passed out because I was so exhausted.
I also found out today that my laptop charger is broken. I dont know what I'm going to do. A replacement one is 100 bucks... might as well buy a new laptop cause mine is so old. My charger will stop charging randomly and then my laptop will die right away after. I have to wiggle it and play around with it for 5 mins just to get it working again. What a pain... bad day today!
By the end of the day I came home and passed out because I was so exhausted.
I also found out today that my laptop charger is broken. I dont know what I'm going to do. A replacement one is 100 bucks... might as well buy a new laptop cause mine is so old. My charger will stop charging randomly and then my laptop will die right away after. I have to wiggle it and play around with it for 5 mins just to get it working again. What a pain... bad day today!
June 13th - Richmond night market
So... being the type of person who plans things the night before, I convinced prince charming to take me to the richmond night market. I had so much fun. On the way there I tried to hard to win tickets on the beat 94.5. But no luck :( lol Once when I did call in, I got put on air so I guess thats why I always phone in and think I actually have a chance.
Anyways so the night market was so much fun! It was neat looking at all the stuff. Prince charming bought me a new make up brush kit. It was expencive but to be honest, I've been using a crappy one for a year now. He bought me the WHOLE SET! I only have like 2 brushes that I was using but now I have so much more variety! Ever watch youtube and see all the professionals show you which types of brushes they use? Those are the ones he bought me :)
There was so much food there! I only had a 3$ cup of chow mein and I was happy lol. No fish balls for me :P
The trip home was tiering and prince charming got frustraited because he was trying to get us home... usually im the leader when it comes to directions but I fell asleep in the seat and of corse he didnt wake me lol. He works graveyards at one of his jobs and so by the time we got home... he had to start half an hour later... we sure cut it close! All that walking today did me good I bet!
Anyways so the night market was so much fun! It was neat looking at all the stuff. Prince charming bought me a new make up brush kit. It was expencive but to be honest, I've been using a crappy one for a year now. He bought me the WHOLE SET! I only have like 2 brushes that I was using but now I have so much more variety! Ever watch youtube and see all the professionals show you which types of brushes they use? Those are the ones he bought me :)
There was so much food there! I only had a 3$ cup of chow mein and I was happy lol. No fish balls for me :P
The trip home was tiering and prince charming got frustraited because he was trying to get us home... usually im the leader when it comes to directions but I fell asleep in the seat and of corse he didnt wake me lol. He works graveyards at one of his jobs and so by the time we got home... he had to start half an hour later... we sure cut it close! All that walking today did me good I bet!
June 12th - House party
So my parents had a house party with their friends. It was what ever. I wasnt into it too much. Mostly me and daisy just sat in my room until it died down around 3am. The next morning I have work... I've been working alot lately. I'm exhaused mentally and physically. Atleast I'll be able to save enough for our anniversary to go to victoria and such. My next pay check is going to be really good :)
June 11th - Video game
Today was prince charmings little brothers bday. I took him to future shop to get him a new game for his new x box. I dont understand gaming... not sure if I ever will lol. 70 bucks on one game? I'd rather buy clothes lol. But w.e makes him happy :P
June 10th - Waterslides!
So we went to the water slides today. I had no idea that my bathing suite was in such bad condition! It was so baggy from me not taking care of it. On our way home prince charming bought me a new bathing suite top so that worked out.
I had so much fun. Although it took us like 45 mins to get there, it was worth it to me. Spending him with him was so much fun. We went down some pretty fun slides and then just chilled in the hot tub. It reminded me of how much I miss swimming. I used to swim alot at the beginning of January. Almost every day. The chlorine was bad for my skin though... and the chlorine in my hair was a mess!
Oh and gosh! Walking up those big stairs to get to the top of the slides was insane! I felt so bad that I was out of shape. I was huffin and puffin by the time I got to the top. Blah
I had so much fun. Although it took us like 45 mins to get there, it was worth it to me. Spending him with him was so much fun. We went down some pretty fun slides and then just chilled in the hot tub. It reminded me of how much I miss swimming. I used to swim alot at the beginning of January. Almost every day. The chlorine was bad for my skin though... and the chlorine in my hair was a mess!
Oh and gosh! Walking up those big stairs to get to the top of the slides was insane! I felt so bad that I was out of shape. I was huffin and puffin by the time I got to the top. Blah
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
June 9th - 200 lbs.
I'm still 200 lbs. At least I HAVEN'T gone up... considering I've basically eaten a whole large pizza to myself in the last 2 days. I don't even want to try to calculate how many calories are in that. Where has my commitment gone? Why is it so hard for me now? I did it once... why cant I do it again?
Today is our anniversary. Maybe that's a sign... Start now.
This time exactly one year ago I was 170 lbs. It was after I met prince charming that I started slowly gaining the weight back... 5 pounds a month.
I need to do some deep thinking... Self reflecting.
Today is our anniversary. Maybe that's a sign... Start now.
This time exactly one year ago I was 170 lbs. It was after I met prince charming that I started slowly gaining the weight back... 5 pounds a month.
I need to do some deep thinking... Self reflecting.
June 8th - Time flys
Its hard to believe that its officially be 1 year since I was skinny. I remember this time exactly one year ago and what I was wearing. The weight gain isn't as shocking until I try on clothes I once wore for the first time in my life as sizes maybe 3 times smaller.
I laughed last year and couldn't understand what was so hard about losing weight. I dropped 35 pounds in a little over 4 months... why is it so hard for me now? Its almost baffling to me. I honestly have no idea why.
Anyways... tomorrow is our 11th month anniversary so we're going to the water slides. It should be fun. Prince charming is the only one I'd trust to see me in a bathing suite. Regardless I'm not the type to wear a bra and panties in to the water. I usually cover up as much as I can. Not because I'm fat... but because I'm conservative. I don't like showing other people my body... just doesn't seem right to me lol. I wear a bathing suite top that looks like a tank top and a skirted bathing suite bottom. It should be fun. We're going rain or shine lol
I laughed last year and couldn't understand what was so hard about losing weight. I dropped 35 pounds in a little over 4 months... why is it so hard for me now? Its almost baffling to me. I honestly have no idea why.
Anyways... tomorrow is our 11th month anniversary so we're going to the water slides. It should be fun. Prince charming is the only one I'd trust to see me in a bathing suite. Regardless I'm not the type to wear a bra and panties in to the water. I usually cover up as much as I can. Not because I'm fat... but because I'm conservative. I don't like showing other people my body... just doesn't seem right to me lol. I wear a bathing suite top that looks like a tank top and a skirted bathing suite bottom. It should be fun. We're going rain or shine lol
June 7th - Photoshoot
I'm inquiring about a photo shoot. I found someone who I went to school with and is offering reasonable prices. We're going to meet up on Friday and hopefully talk about what kinds of shots we want and such. Hopefully I get what I'm looking for. I've never done a photo shoot before. Prince charming on the other hand has done acting and modeling alot growing up. lol Hopefully I can get some romantic shots of the two of us. He's already agreed to them and thinks its a good idea.
June 6th - Disney land?
So the more research I do... the more I want to do. I think we're going to book a trip to Disney land in September for prince charmings bday. I'd love to do that. Right now we're just talking about it.
I'm the type of person who usually puts her foot forward and goes and gets what she wants. I'm not a dreamer lol. If I want to go to Disney land... I'll make it happen ahaha. Its just going to take alot of savings. Its important for prince charming and I to do our travelling before school starts. Once we're tied down our options will be limited lol.
I've been there before mind you... and its the most amazing place ever.
I'm the type of person who usually puts her foot forward and goes and gets what she wants. I'm not a dreamer lol. If I want to go to Disney land... I'll make it happen ahaha. Its just going to take alot of savings. Its important for prince charming and I to do our travelling before school starts. Once we're tied down our options will be limited lol.
I've been there before mind you... and its the most amazing place ever.
June 4th - SAVE OUR MONEY
lol I just realized that the word YOUR... also has the word OUR in it lol. And when we're refering to money... thats actually quite funny :P
I've taken on a huge responsibility of trying to make sure prince charming budgets right for our 1 year anniversary. We're planning on going to victoria island and spending a couple of nights there... and then coming back to vancouver and seeing some pretty cool stuff like the capilano suspension bridge. Our 1 year anniversary is really important to me for some reason. I feel like I'm the one stressing out about it. Prince charming is super excited about it too lol but I'm the one taking care of the planning. I have to pre book the hotels and book the tours and stuff. I just cant wait to be able to finally say we've been together for so long... when really some people still believe that we were never dating lol. We told people that we were just friends for THE LONGEST time ever lol.
Originally I wanted to go on a cruise... its not until you reasearch that you see the endless options. They have 7 day cruises to alaska lol. Its something to think about in the future lol
I've taken on a huge responsibility of trying to make sure prince charming budgets right for our 1 year anniversary. We're planning on going to victoria island and spending a couple of nights there... and then coming back to vancouver and seeing some pretty cool stuff like the capilano suspension bridge. Our 1 year anniversary is really important to me for some reason. I feel like I'm the one stressing out about it. Prince charming is super excited about it too lol but I'm the one taking care of the planning. I have to pre book the hotels and book the tours and stuff. I just cant wait to be able to finally say we've been together for so long... when really some people still believe that we were never dating lol. We told people that we were just friends for THE LONGEST time ever lol.
Originally I wanted to go on a cruise... its not until you reasearch that you see the endless options. They have 7 day cruises to alaska lol. Its something to think about in the future lol
June 3rd - Splice
We saw splice today at the theaters. I thought it was pretty crazy! Prince charming thought it was disturbing and gross because of what we saw... but in all honesty... its just a movie lol. I thought it was crazy because it was something I had never seem before.
Defiantly a renter if you re into crazy sci fi movies... run to your block buster when its out.
Defiantly a renter if you re into crazy sci fi movies... run to your block buster when its out.
June 2nd - Prince of persia
So Prince charming and I saw the movie today and it was AMAZING! I loved it and by the end of the movie I was nothing but smiles! Prince charming thought it was cute that I really liked the movie. I think we have a special connection with the movie because I bought him the game for Christmas. Its defiantly one we will be buying :)
June 1st - weight shot up
I weigh 200 lbs. And I'm not happy about it. I'm not sure why I gained 3 lbs... but I think it has something to do with me getting my appetite back.
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