205 to 150

205 to 150
A journy of weight loss

Sunday, January 31, 2010

January 30th - This will make you fail...

It's not so much about the physical transformation I don't think. I truly see our weight loss journeys as being a self reflecting time. I came to realize (after my first experience of losing weight) what exactly I did wrong. We all start our journey with the "want" to feel happy. We want to look in the mirror and feel beautiful. We want to be "skinny". I came to see that the true quest is more a mind set factor.

I started my journey last year with the thought that if I lost weight I would be happy. But to be honest, every single day that looked in the mirror I still thought I was fat, And this was even at my lowest weight of 170 lbs. You need to accept yourself the way you are before any of this can work. I basically set myself up to fail. I was self consumed with wanting to lose weight and even thought I did it the healthy way, I didn't learn from my experience. I just watched it from the side lines. I thought that losing weight would solve all my problems. I felt like I needed to lose more and more weight when in fact, I think I looked pretty damn good! (This is me looking back at me as 170 while being 205 lbs lol).

So my advice from personal experience is that you try to accept and love yourself as much as you can before your journey. If you think about it, all this binging that we do, all this unhealthy stuff we do to ourselves... that's not loving ourselves... If you love yourself, you wont do that. There are bigger problems then "food" going on in someones life when they do this to themselves. They have issues that need to be taken care of. I figure loving yourself and weight loss come hand in hand. If you don't care for yourself first, then you wont know how to when you reach your goal weight. This is what happened to me. Learn how to love yourself and weight loss will come too.

Love,
Tishy205

Friday, January 29, 2010

January 29th - Fat people hate talking about fatness

I know this is a weird title but I've come to find over and over again that when I mention working out or exercise to a big person, they kind of change the subject. They look extremely uncomfortable and uneasy. I'm fat too you know! lol There's no need to be shy about it.
Recently at work, I mentioned to a girl (she was bigger) that I was going swimming and roller blading. I mentioned that I was trying to increase my exercise. At that point things got very awkward lol. I have no idea why!
Have you also noticed that (for those of you who have been skinny or lost weight before) people will approach you more when you're thin? I've COMPLETELY observed this when I was 170. At 170 I look like I'm 160. I looked lean and toned. I found that people were hitting on me (Something I had never experienced before), people were taking the time to talk to me more, and people were just over all more friendly. This goes for people I've know a long time too! I don't know weather it was me that had gained the confidence, or them to approach me.
Have you noticed that as well?

On the vise versa! Have you ever experienced the feeling when a skinny friend is telling you shes going to go work out or is on a DIET? Don't you think to yourself... "GIRL YOU'RE ALREADY SKINNY! DO US A FAVOUR AND GAIN SOME SO WE ALL LOOK THE SAME!" My friend of like 12 years was always a little chubby. She started off being the same weight as me during elementary school. Lost a tiny bit during middle school and was still fairly normal during high school. But after high school she dropped major pounds. She went from being 150-160 down to 130. I have no idea how she did it AND she claims she doesn't know how either. In my head I'm calling a little bullshit but hey, shes my friend! I'll trust her a little :P Anyways she talks about how she should go to the gym and stuff and in my mind I'm thinking... you're already skinny! No, in all honesty, I'm super happy for her and I cant wait to join her in "skinny-ville" But that's going to take time.

Anyways today was a hard day on me. Nothing seemed to be going right. On top of that, prince charmings mom bought me a veggie burger. I ate it this morning and it took over 1/3 of my calorie intake, I was quite upset. I like to be under my calorie limit as a safety net in case my estimates are wrong or in case I need a late night snack. With that in mind, it was almost like I had consumed 1/2 of my daily intake. I was too busy worrying about how I could eat the rest of the day and keep under budget. At least I ate it in the morning instead of at night because I'm sure I wouldn't have been able to digest it properly if I had slept on it. I am going roller blading tonight (sadly, by myself cause prince charming is at work) But that will bring my calorie count back down to average. Maybe I'll do some pussy cat doll work out movies while I'm at it lol. At 6 am I am going swimming so that should be fun. Even though Prince charming has to work a graveyard shift tonight, hes going to meet me at the pool at 7:30am right after work. Thats sooo sweet of him. Way to support me :P

Anyways ttyl guys! :)
Only 19 days to go!
Tishy205

January 28th - Exercise groove

Ok, so I've recently become almost addicted to exercise. I feel almost like I need it. I went roller blading last night at 11pm and then did a dance work out at around 3am and then went swimming for 2 hours at 6am where I then headed to work. Sadly, because the rest of my day was spent catching up on sleep, I was only able to do another 10 mins of a work out video tonight. I ended up burning over 1000 calories today just in exercise!
I love the feeling of doing something that's fun! I think whats most important to me then anything is that prince charming is there for me. I truly do appreciate the way hes there to support me 100%. He even tried doing the pussy cat dolls work out video with me today :P It was cute but he gave up after 5 mins. Too much booty shaking I guess lol.
I really do recommend everyone getting a work out dance video. It's so much fun and by the time I was done 20 mins this morning I was sweating buckets! Its so much fun learning dance routines. I remember when i was 13, I was in jazz dance classes and it was a lot of fun, although I opted to go into soccer instead the coming years after.

I've also created a binder yesterday where I log all my food that I eat and what I've done to work out everyday. In there I'm going to have 1 title page, 1 sheet protector for each month, meal plans, my pledge, goal pictures of myself at my lowest weight last year and possibly motivational thoughts. I've been contemplating a lot about sharing what I've written as my pledge with my viewers. I find it VERY personal but I feel as though if I show people what a pledge looks like, then it might inspire people to write their own.

I am also proud to say that my 28 day challenge is happening head strong! It has now been 8 days and I have exercised every single day so far! I only have 20 days to go!
Remember... valentines day is coming up :) And if you were one of those people who hated this day (like me for many many years) just remember that valentines day is what you make of it. Go out with friends have a good time (if you don't have someone), but make it your own day! Starting Sunday, we have 14 days to get down to business! Work it hard and stay on track! :)

Love, tishy205

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

January 27th - Dont do it if you Dont love it.

I just got back from roller blading with my new skates. BUT turns out they gave me one skate that was too small *rolls eyes* so one of my feet hurt very badly lol. I went for 25 mins and that's when I called it quits due to pain. I ended up reaching my daily calorie amount that I had set to meet today anyways.

Ok my point of today's post is that you shouldn't be doing something you don't feel happy doing. A lot of people think that running is the way to lose weight. But the truth is... any exercise can help you lose weight. I bought roller blades cause prince charming has them too and its something we both found fun to do together. We tried running together but he would go too fast lol and it was hard for me to keep up. If you like dancing then dance! If you like ice skating, then ice skate! There are lots of different things you can do to have fun. Don't limit yourself.
I suggest you try something new each week. Work for each day that you live.

Mwah! bye for now :)

January 26th - Insecurities about swimming in public!

Hey guys! So I weighed myself today (even though I didn't want to) and it turns out I'm now 196.2 yayyy! I'm extremely happy because I know that I deserved to lose that pound. I hope to be at least 195 by Sunday, then I will be able to record a 10 pound loss for JANUARY :)

Valentines day is coming quite fast actually! And I'd like to be at least in the 180's by then. I could be 189 for all I care and I'd be happy as a clam. It is definatly a goal I plan to meet.

As for my daily exercise today, I am proud to say that I conquered that fear of swimming in public lol (kind of lol). I know that a lot of people face this fear because of body image and let me tell you, I would be first to sign up for this group. I was extremely shy to wear a bathing suit in front of prince charming as well. Mind you, my bathing suit top goes past my tummy and I wore shorts over my bottom. I figure my insecurity is mostly because I'm not used to showing that much skin (no matter who I'm with) but also because I felt extremely big (yes, I was having a fat moment). I am a very "covered up girl." I don't like showing off any parts of my body. I don't do this because I feel a woman's body is beautiful and should be kept classy. I don't feel as though I want my body shown to other people and I dont like being viewed as eye candy. I find it degrading and disrespectful. ANYWAYS lol... I remember being 170 and feeling insecure about wearing a bathing suit even then. So this is something I need to work on. It wasn't until last year in march that I opened my eyes enough to see women who were over 250lbs wearing small bikinis that I thought..."why the hell am I so insecure about how my body looks?" It's still a work in progress :P
So prince charming and I basically woke up at 6am so I could go into the leisure swim...(the pool basically consisted of old people) I felt comfortable with people who I felt wouldn't judge me. 6 am is quite early, and I was exhausted after. I'm not sure if I can continue going at that time in the morning but I'm going to try very hard. I hope to go on Thursday or Friday again.

As for my roller blades, I reserved a new pair to buy on Friday. I got prince charming to look at them and he said they were a good pair! So I'm going to try them out and see how they do. They're about 80$ but I figure you cant put a price on health. And its something else me and prince charming can do together more often.

Ok! So Sunday I walked to the store I wanted to go to, Monday I roller bladed (fail) and Tuesday I went swimming in the morning. Tomorrow I'm going to try this new work out video I bought (ITS BY THE PUSSY CAT DOLLS) Its a work out video I bought for like 9 bucks. And get this... prince charming said he would do the dance routine with me so I would feel more comfortable :P That's going to be a fun time. Aw hes so sweet.

Anyways guys! :) Exercising can be fun! You just have to fit your right groove.
Take care,
Tishy205

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

January 25th - How to tell if you are no longer hungry

So today I had an Epiphany. I read in a magazine the other day that more then not, when we put down our fork at the dinner table as a "rest" it means that you should stop eating. Its an indication of boredom and proves that you should pack or save the rest of your food for later.
Today while at sushi, I heard a "clink" from my chopsticks hitting the plate. I looked down and wasn't even half way done when I realized I wasn't hungry anymore. It was then that I remembered that article I read about being full. So next time you hear your fork hit the side of the plate... try to realize that you might not be hungry anymore and that slight "pause" you're taking is a sign that your body is full.

Also I went out and bought roller blades today! It was so much fun but turns out I bought an extremely crappy pair. Although I did burn a lot of calories just by roller blading with a CRAPPY pair, I'm going to try and buy a better ones. Its something I'd like to take up with prince charming since he has a really expensive pair and loves it.

p.s 5 days in a row of exercise! only 23 more days to go! Yay me!! :)

Monday, January 25, 2010

January 24th - Walk to where you want to go

I made promises to myself of how many calories I'd like to burn each day. Unfortunately today was one of the higher calorie amounts that I had to reach. Prince charming and I decided that we would walk to the place we wanted to go. It was actually a lot of fun and super cute. Even though we didn't end up buying anything, we had a really great time. I ended up burning the equivalent to 500 calories just from walking to and from where I wanted to go.

Next time you have a craving for ice cream... walk there. ;)
Tishy205

Sunday, January 24, 2010

January 23rd - Still on track

Hopefully I will be able to see at least a tiny loss this week after my water retention dies down. If I exercise tomorrow as well, I'll have kept my goal of being active at least 4 times this week. Next week I hope to make it at least 5 times. It was funny because I got as high as 200 lbs this week and now I'm back down to 197.
I'm working on eating less sushi though... I've come to find that I don't go to the washroom regularly when I eat sushi. When I eat a lot of veggies and fruits I go a lot more often.

Anyways guys! :)
Tomorrows a new day!

Saturday, January 23, 2010

January 23 - It takes time

Last year, I had my mind set to the fact that weight loss takes time. I didn't care if I lost weight or not. I just wanted to become healthier. It took me nearly 5 months to get to where I was. The process was slow but it worked. I came to find that 95% of people who try to lose weight end up gaining it back. I unfortunately was in that category of people who gained. I teased prince charming today saying, "why am I bothering to become smaller if I'm going to have kids (pregnant) and get big again one day". He laughed and said that I was beautiful anyway size I choose to be. I've never met anyone like him. Its almost hard to believe that someone could love me so much. I'm lucky to have his support. I didn't have support the first time I tried to lose weight. Unfortunately, his heart is so big that he can not say "no" to me. If I ask for ice cream... he will run to the store to get it for me. He is skinny and so he has never had to deal with being bigger growing up. In fact he was underweight when he was little.
If there is anything I've come to learn about his eating habits its that he knows when to stop. Its almost remarkable! Sometimes I just sit there and watch him eat. When something tastes good to me, I will eat until I cant eat anymore. To me... eating is PLEASURE. It feels good... It tastes good... it makes me happy. But its not the same way for prince charming. I asked him one day why he stopped eating pizza after 3 slices (I could eat 7 slices alone) And he said, "The food tastes good, but I know that if I keep eating I will feel sick after. I know it tastes good... but its not going anywhere...?" I found that so hard to believe! Yes... it will be GONE because I will have ate it all lol. Last year I could have eaten a whole small - medium pizza to myself. Now, I cant eat as much because my stomach has shrunk. In my family... if you don't eat when the food is served, then you will not get any because it is all gone.

From August 20 - Sept 20th I did a month of fasting for Ramadan (religious reasons). I was not allowed to eat during the day. I could however eat when the sun went down. This was a bad thing because I would eat at around 9pm and continue to eat until bed time. I basically slept on my food. I went from being 177 at the start of Ramadan to 185. So i gained a majority of my weight there. I'm working on correcting what I've done. I hope to be a total of 10 lbs down by the end of January. That is my main goal. And then I would like to lose another 10 lbs next month. If I can get to 180 by my bday... that would be great. Anywhere from 185-175 would be a wish come true. Its going to take a lot of work but I can do it :) I've done it before.

Another thing is, I'm getting quite tired of people choosing diets that are extreme and have very little chances of working... and then they yell at everyone saying "DONT CRITICIZE MY DIET" and then they make big videos complaining about why they haven't lost weight yet. It is EXTREMELY hard to lose 30 lbs in 30 days... so for those of you trying to do that... good luck. I hope you accomplish it because that would be awesome! But you don't need to yell at other people, especially your dedicated viewers.

The point of todays post is that... yes I did lost weight last year. But it took alot of time and dedication.
Anyways :) Tomorrow is a new day!
Tishy205

Friday, January 22, 2010

January 21st - The pledge

So I've now completed writing myself my pledge. I plan on reading it to myself everyday for 28 days so that I can stay on track and motivated. I've also made a calender so that I can track down my exercise and progress. Allot of people are doing a 21 day challenge on YouTube. I'm just doing my own 28 day challenge. The reason why they chose 21 days is because it apparently takes 21 days to form and break a habit. I want to get rid of bad habits starting today. I decided this last night. I didn't decide to wait until Monday... or Sunday... no. I'm starting NOW. Putting things off will only affect me in the end.
I've decided not to post my pledge until the very end because its quite personal. There is however, a video I'd like you all to check out... its called sunscreen.. it really makes you think :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xfq_A8nXMsQ

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Jan 19th - Up coming food videos

I just have a couple of ideas so far. I've been asked to show some of my wraps that I make. I also have an a really low cal way to make pizza and also I have a really great healthy salad as well.

I've decided to only post body shots when I hit a 5 pound loss mark. Hopefully it will be easier then posting every pound I lost.

Anyways guys :) Keep smiling

Monday, January 18, 2010

January 18th - More videos?

Hey guys so I've decided that for a full week, I'm going to post tutorials on foods that I eat and how to make them. I will make 7 videos hopefully starting on Sunday :)
I've already done one and it just needs to be edited and posted. All my meals are vegetarian and good for you. The first one will be tofu based and its really yummy.

Another project I'm going to work on is something called "my pledge." I'm going to make a short paragraph of a pledge that I want to read to myself every morning and every night. Its going to be something personal and thoughtful to help me stay on track. I find that a big issue that people have is staying motivated. I had this problem last year. I found ways to keep myself motivated but it was still difficult.

Anyways take care :)

Sunday, January 17, 2010

January 17th - When are you a failure?

I've noticed quite a few people in the weight loss community on youtube are going through what I am going through. Last year in 09, I lost weight. This year... I've gained back. Its not that I'm proud of gaining it back... nor am I depressed. I see it as another chance to get back on the path that I set last year. And if you are going through what I have... then you shouldn't feel bad either. Don't focus on what was done... focus on what you can do now.
Smile2DayTears2Morrois one of the people who are going through what I have. I feel bad that she thinks a 10 pound gain is a lot. Shes beautiful and she shouldn't feel so bad over something so minor. I'm totally inspired with how she is getting back on track to lose the last 10 lbs.
Another person is Cindy aka fatty2slim. She is my biggest idol on YouTube. Unfortunately, she is also going through what I am. She is also back on track. I wish she would post more videos because I started my own youtube account because of her. Shes a huge inspiration. She lately states in her videos that its hard to name even one person who has tried to lose weight and kept it off the first time.
My point is... two of my idols are going through what I am. Does that make us failures? I highly doubt that. Being a healthier person is a life style change. You HAVE NOT FAILED until you STOP TRYING. Everyone faces things in their life which can prove to be world altering.

...You know it was funny because last year I didn't understand. I wasn't open minded enough to realize why people would do things like this to themselves (gain the weight back) I didn't realize until it happened to me. I fell in love... how could I have helped that? I lost sight of my goals and what I had worked so hard for. And know what? I'm not the only one. I have sympathy for people who are going through what I am because it took so long to get to where I was. I will however have no sympathy with myself if I let it happen again. I have no excuse this time, and quite frankly... if I want to live an unhealthy life style then thats just sad.

Another thing is that one of the people I was close with in '09 is now going on an extreme to lose weight. I'm not saying that I support her and I'm not saying that I don't. My views are personal and not needed although I would like to see if she can keep the weight off in the end. Maybe she will and maybe she wont... but either way I hope she gets what she wants. We will find out in 30 days time :P p.s all those people leaving her mean messages... totally uncalled for.

A thought of mine to feed your mind... One thing I cant stand in the weight loss community is that there are so many people willing to lecture. "You are not doing things right" or "You need to do this to get this result"... my honest opinion on these people? - Thanks? And since when are you a doctor? I'm finding more and more that people are being put down by others who have no back up what so ever. Its not happening to me... thankfully all my subscribers are soo awesome!
But if you have not lost weight before, you have no room to lecture others. When you have lost weight and can prove you know what you are doing, you don't need to tell me or anyone else that we are doing things wrong because clearly... you are not doing things right either.
It completely baffles me that people are that clueless lol. Really... it makes me laugh.
Stop putting other people down!

I watched a video today and it really got to me. Its time for us to start thinking OUTSIDE of the box. Weight loss is plain and simple. It requires two things. Eating less and movement. This video is based on rewards. Prince charming just asked me last night if we could go out for dinner when I reached 195. Is that a reward? I have now come to realize that I should be able to go out for dinner when ever I want. BUT I should be adult enough to decide what I should and what I shouldn't be able to eat. Last week when I decided that I wanted to go out for dinner when I reach 195 (10 pound loss) I was going to have fettuccine Alfredo and anything else my heart desires. God what a fail that would have been. Whats the point of trying to change your life style if you head right back to it after 2 weeks? Its time for us to start seeing things differently. Its about viewing things from a different mind set. How bad do you want to lose weight? A lot? Ok, then how would going back to your old style help you lose anymore weight? I'm glad I had this revelation tonight :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t-lDxihn-0g&feature=sub
This video really spoke out to me.

January 16th - 197.0

Success! LAST Sunday I was 199 and now I am 197 today. If I get to 196 tomorrow, I will have lost 3 lbs like I planned to lose each week.
I will do my weigh in and body shots tomorrow and hopefully have them uploaded, but we all know I'm always late lol.
My goals for next week are to increase my physical activity because I've only gone walking about 3 times this week. So...at least 4 times walking and I'd also like to eat more fruits and veggies :) I've also come to discover that I can lose weight eating my favourite food which is sushi. I was worried at first that I might have to cut it out of my eating plan because of how much fat are in the avocados... but then I came to learn that avocados are apparently a SUPER FOOD! So they are really good for you :) I am literally an avocado addict. I could eat sooo many of them.

Hope you are all staying on track :)
Take care,
Tishy205

Friday, January 15, 2010

January 15th - Whats your food weakness?

So today, I've come to realize that one of my weakness foods is sushi. I could eat tons of it and never get tried. Whats your weakness food. Do you think its better to limit your weakness food and risk binge or do you think its better just to eliminate it all together?
I've also come to realize that fatty foods and laziness come hand in hand. When you eat foods that are light and healthy, you can move a lot more, you have more energy. When you eat pizza from pizza hut or pig out on McDonald's, you don't feel like going for a run eh? lol
I'm still focusing on increasing my water intake. I drink about 1 L to 1.5 L So I'm working on it. I think in the past 2 weeks, I've drank 2L about 4 times... So I really need to pick that up.

Anyways 2 days until my weigh in again. And I've weighed myself and I'm already down 1.2 pounds from last week. Hopefully I can raise that by Sunday.
Take care guys :)

Thursday, January 14, 2010

January 14 - First compliment

I got my first compliment today from my prince charming. He said that my waist felt smaller ":)
I'm also struggling with trying to calorie count after the day is over rather than during the day. I seem to get stressed out and binge when I calorie count during the day.
Hopefully I'll be posting a video sometime soon with me talking. I have my next body shot coming up on Sunday.
I've also decided to start posting visuals of my calorie count weekly. I've come to find that I'm getting better and better at estimating. I've also bought a new camera because I broke mine in October so I'd like to update some videos on the things that I eat (as requested).

Take care guys!
Stay on track. :)

January 13 - Watch out for these mistakes

I've come to learn two very important things. I've learned them the hard way after the consequences have been done.
1. Losing weight is one of the easiest parts. The hardest part is maintaining the life style. I was so focused on getting down to goal weight that I didn't plan ahead to when I was actually there. I ended up getting overwhelmed with things that happened in my life and ended up letting go. If you are going to become healthier... don't go on a diet... instead, make a life style change.

2. There is ALWAYS a substitute. I learned this especially last night. After going to MC Donald's and spending nearly 600 calories, I realized I could have eaten the exact same things at home for 150 cal. I could personally make a potato any way I want and I could have had a skinny cow (50cal) to get rid of my craving of ice cream. There is almost ALWAYS a healthier way to eat things.
If you want pizza, try a tortilla with pizza sauce and some cheese. That way you control how many calories you put into your body. (It's actually really good)

Every day we learn new things. Life is a process of learning :)
Anyways didn't go for my walk last night soooo... I went for a 2 hour walk tonight. Done!
Looking forward to keeping up with my healthy life style. Peace, love, and prosperity!

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

January 12 - Lovin my new method

Hey guys! I'm totally loving this new routine I'm on. I feel like I could do this as a new life style change. Basically eating well but I'm not forcing myself to eat either. I eat when I'm hungry and its so simple that it sound stupid! I'm still logging in my calorie count before I go to bed for the day. Hopefully I can continue to do this because I know that if I keep under my calorie count, I'll lose 2 lbs a week. That's what they say anyways lol. We'll see :)

p.s about to head for my walk in a bit :) My own personal time alone... with prince charming and the dog lol... -sigh of relief- :P

Monday, January 11, 2010

January 11th - Found my zone

So, I was totally right about the whole calorie counting not being right for me. I never calorie counted last year and I don't want to this year. It is a hassle and its not really realistic. I will be logging in my foods to see if I am going over calorie budget but ONLY at night time when I go to bed. I want to log my foods at the end of the day because I want to teach myself how to estimate my own foods without a calculator.
I tried this method today. I ate every 2 hours and only when hungry. I ended up only using about 1/2 of my calorie intake by 11pm and that's just by me going on how I feel during the day.
I noticed that when I calorie counted, I kept seeing the number I had left in my budget. I felt like I had to use up all the calories I could. I wasn't budgeting right and ended up binging at night. That's another thing for me. If I want to eat at night. I'm only going to have stuff like miso soup or cucumbers.
I have to lose 3 lbs every week until march to meet my goal weight of 180-175. I am sure that I can lose another 3 lbs this week. I posted another body shot on YouTube today although I don't see much of a difference, the scale tells me different with a 3 lb loss.
I did go for my walk tonight and boy did it feel good. It was raining but I didn't care. I took an umbrella. I forgot how calming walks are. They let you reflect on life... they let you think about the future and for at least a half an hour, your worries can wait.

I've decided to post what I've ate during the day at the end of each week. I see no point in posting it every day BUT I will still try to do an update every day :)
Hope you guys are all doing good!

BTW Has anyone seen tearsnomore87's new youtube video? All I have to say is... "wow..." ahah

January 10th - A new tomorrow

Hey guys. Since I'm going for a new approach tomorrow, I'm not going to bother posting what I ate today. No more of trying to find a new method. I'm going back to what I did last year.

P.s I watched AVATAR today... great movie ;)

Sunday, January 10, 2010

January 9 - The root of the problem

Ok guys! I am now back from my hour walk and boy did it kill. It was my first walk in ABOUT 6 months? About time eh? No wonder I've gained so much. Too much time in paradise can really affect the body. Anyways, its deja vu. I remember this same feeling last year when I lost my weight. It was hard at first too! But god do my thighs burn. By the time I got home, I spent nearly 5 mins scratching at my thighs. I don't know about you but that fiery burning feeling you get after exercise when its cold weather out... it kills! Now I just have to work at going regularly every day. I remember last year... nothing could stop me from missing my daily walk.

Anyways, so last year, what I did was I would eat EVERY 2 HOURS. I would eat an apple in the morning at 9, a banana at 11 and carrots at 1 and then a sandwich at 3 and maybe cottage cheese and crackers at 5 and then my big salad at 7. By 8pm I would have my half an hour walk and that was what my day was. There was no room for snacks because I was constantly eating every 2 hours. This was my routine for 6 months and that is the reason I lost weight.
I have now come to find that with me calorie counting... its not working for me. Yes, it keeps me from binging BUT I actually feel as though its causing me to eat more then I need to.
Let me explain. If I go the whole day and eat only 500 calories, I naturally feel that I need to eat those 900 calories or that I need to spend those calories before I go to bed. I have not once been under my calorie limit by more then 50 calories. This is terrible and I can tell that I'm not going to get very far this way.

Naturally, our bodies (when first dieting) will go into shock the first couple of days. I lost 7 pounds in 5-6 days. That's REALLY good. But more then likely. It was water weight, "My body getting rid of excess junk." Now its my job to make sure that I work hard to lose the weight.
Tomorrow I will do my body shot and I'm going to try a new approach for this coming week. If I lose more then 2 lbs, it proves that I'm on the right path. If not, I'll have to work harder.

Anyways, today I ate
lunch - a bit of salad with salsa
miso soup
snacks - some cookies
skinny cow
breakfast - 1/4 of a bagel with cream cheese
carrots with a table spoon of hummus
late night snack - whole cucumber with lemon juice.
broccoli soup and half a bun for dinner

Last year, I didnt have the problem of eating junk food. I feel like I'm having to re - learn how to eat properly. I was only eating veggies and fruit last year.

Self note - I need to focus on eating more veggies. Just because I'm within my calorie limit... doesn't mean that these choices are healthy.

Saturday, January 9, 2010

January 8th - Change of plans

Today I proved that I am only human. Today is the first day that I binged since I've started my new health plan. I have only myself to blame and the fact that I stay up till 4am every night.
It started last night after I posted my blog. At around 1 am I had this strange craving for MC Donald's. I begged prince charming to take me to get some fries. Luckily, I was sane enough to order the smallest order of fries they had (The baby size). He however ordered a yogurt parfait which I ended up eating anyways. That was fine. I was planning on eating under budget today so I could make up for the food I ate at night. I ended up having miso soup when I got home and a skinny cow fudgecicle. (only 85 cal).
I was fine until night time when prince charming went on his break from work. I went to visit him and ended up having a craving for sushi. And if you know me in person you will know that I LOVE SUSHI. I could live off of it.
Its funny because last may, I had discovered that sushi even existed. With me being a vegetarian, I had no idea that I could actually eat it. Long story short... I ended up spending nearly $100 alone in one week on it :P And I continued to eat it for close to a month after that straight.
I think I have very strong commitment values. When I go somewhere, I stay dedicated. The very first time I went for sushi, I refused to go anywhere else. I became known to the owners of the place and loved going there. They were such great people and would always smile when they saw me, gave me free ice cream or fruit or miso soup or even drinks because I was so dedicated to them... Today when I went into the same sushi place, I saw that the owners changed. I felt weird. I felt deceived in a way. Apparently, the ownership had changed a month ago. I felt almost betrayed because to me, that was their business! They cant leave! :(
Sushi will honestly never be the same to me. I still ended up ordering from there but let me tell you that the sushi was way different. Still good... but not the same, nor was it made the same.
Anyways!!!! what I'm getting to is that it is VERY hard to calculate how many calories are in sushi lol. I ended up having to individually estimate how much was in each of what I ate.
With the sushi being over 700 cal, it put me over the calorie limit. I would rather over estimate then under estimate because atleast then I can work it off fully tomorrow.
I'm a very organized person and I really do wish I had the exact calorie count lol.

AS FOR MY WALK!!!... it didn't happen. BUT HEY!! I have a reason why. Not only did I get only 2 hours of sleep last night before work, but by the time I woke up after work it was 1 am... hence the late night blog. BUTTTTT... don't worry because I have the next two days off and honestly... they are going to be spent well when it comes to exercising. Prince charming promised me that we would go for at least an hour walk tomorrow. If not, I'm going by myself. I did it by my self the first time and I can do it again.
So basically sushi put me over my calorie count maybe? Tomorrow I'll minus from my daily intake so that I balance out somehow.

So that was my first binge. All bad stuff! If I want to make it to 195 by Sunday, I really have to buckle down! :(
Anyways take care!

Friday, January 8, 2010

January 7th - I have expectations now.

So during the last 7 days I have lost 7 lbs. I know that most of it will be water weight and such but in order for me to reach my weight before my bday (175 lbs) I need to lose 3 lbs a week for the next 2 months. Its going to get harder from here. I've decided to begin walking starting tomorrow. I will do it for 30 mins after dinner each night. I hope that by doing this, I'll be able to boost my metabolism and continue to lose weight. I will be posting a new video on Sunday showing a body shot and my weigh in for the week. I'd like to be at least 195 by Sunday but that might be far fetched. So far if I continue under my calorie budget I should naturally meet 175 by April 17th according to the calculator I'm using. I'm hoping that by adding exercise I'll be able to speed up the process :) wish me luck!

Today I ate
breakfast
sandwich
-rye bread
-avocado
-annies organic dressing
-Romain lettuce
lunch
cucumber
avocado
lime juice
dinner
miso soup
some mash potato's
cereal and yogurt for desert
crackers

I'll update you all tomorrow on how my 30 min walk goes. Its going to be the first one I've done in months so I wouldn't be surprised if I don't make it. hahah :)
Stay tuned
Tishy205

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

January 6th - 198.4 lbs

What what?!?!
Wow, I just weighed myself today and I'm at 198.4 lbs. Progress is happening guys and I can feel it. I can taste it and I am beginning to see it! I never knew how many people actually blog from youtube! I just subscribed to Cindy's blog today. Shes my idol and the reason I joined youtube last year in the first place. I hope that by following her on her journey, I'll be able to stay even more motivated.
I ate sooo well today!
Breakfast
soup and crackers
lunch ***soooo friken good!!!***
1 whole cucumber
with half an avocado
lime juice on top
dinner
sandwich
-rye bread
-avocado 1/2
-cucumber bits from lunch
-romaine lettuce
-annies dressing (organic)
snacks
rice cake
lindor chocolate
1 cup of yogurt with some special k cereal sprinkled on top

I am still under my calorie budget for today!
Gosh I feel great and I'm getting better at eating. I think I was stuck on eating the same things every single day but now I'm starting to seek out some variety. Eating healthy doesn't have to taste bad. You don't have to feel emptiness in the pit of your stomach.
Today I bought some crystal light and made a big pitcher. (you all know how I'm trying to drink more water lol) I also put frozen fruit in the jug omggg it was delicious! I couldn't believe how great it was. For 2 L of juice with added fruit I only ate 65 calories. Discovering a health plan is fun. You get to find out what works for you. Trial and error.
I know that people lose weight fast in the beginning. This is why I have my whole method set on not plateauing. Everything is going to work out great and I'm so excited that you are here reading this blog and keeping up with me.

7 lbs down 28 to go until I reach my first goal weight.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

January 5th - I refuse to plateau !

Some of you have been wondering about the calorie counting. A lot of people either don't have a ipod with the application I have. But there is a simple one you can use online. I even used it for a month last year but found it too much of a hassle to log everything down. It was called caloriecount.com. It super easy to use and its actually a really great program.
I've also come to realize that I NEED to start my physical fitness soon. I currently weight 201. Which is a total of 4 pounds lost in 5 days, but in order for me to lose 20 pounds in the next two months... I better get my butt moving! I can tell right away that almost every person reading my blog is going to say, “oh god, she exercises and that's the reason she lost weight.” You will then go on to assume that what I do takes hard work and is therefore not the right method for you. If you are part of the 5% of people reading this who say, “awesome I'm going to do the same exercises she does!” Then good for you, because honestly, my method is really quite logical.
I base my exercise on the though of plateauing. I know that if I go hard core at losing weight meaning I eat very little and exercise EVERYDAY for say...4 hours a day, eventually, my body will get used to it and I wont lose as much anymore. I will then have to UP my routine to put my body back into burning mode. Now tell me, how hard is that?!?!... VERY!
So here's what I do. The first week is learning how to eat properly. Not only will we lose weight because we are eating healthier and our bodies are finally detoxifying BUT our stomachs will shrink as well. Then after the first week, we add in walking 30 mins a day AFTER DINNER *very important, it helps the digestion*. The week after it will be raised to a light jog 3 mins then 5 mins walking for 30 mins 3 times a week and then 3 times a week continuing with the walking. If that is even too much for you then try speed walking for those 3 mins, then a soft pace for 5 mins. Working out doesn't have to be hard. The whole point is just to burn more calories then consumed. Eventually I will turn 6 days of the week into a light jog for 30 mins. When I reach my 5th week I will then begin to do some painful stair climbs at the local stadium foot ball field. **This is for my own pleasure because my butt is one of my biggest problem areas and by doing this I will be toning it** Now I think you understand the whole idea of trying to avoid the plateau by slowly increasing the activity we do each week.
Not only this, but I challenge you to try something new each week. Weather it be walking your neighbors dog one week, ice skating, bowling, or even if you find the time to walk to work.
A viewer would also like me to post a video on how I make my wraps. I would love to do this in the next coming week!
Today I ate
yogurt on a cut up apple
a wrap
-salad
-salsa
-lemon juice
1 banana
1 lindor chocolate
some pretzels (190 cal)
a salad
and cucumber with lemon juice sprinkled on top.
I am well under my limit today but I would like to pick up smaller bananas. At least medium sized would do. I find that the ones I bought last were jumbo sized and really, it only adds to calories.
I'm posting this blog early because I want to focus on NOT eating late tonight. I'm finding it a bit of a pain. Its a habit I really want to get out of my system. When I have my late night snacks, I've come to find that they can take up ¼ of my daily intake. Completely uncalled for because by the time I actually start my day, I have to budget and not eat as much as I should be eating.
Anyways, until tomorrow!
Tishy205
p.s did I mention that I'm now 201lbs? :)

January 4th - Trying to balance my meals

So last year when I lost 40 pounds, the first thing I did with my eating habits was eat more often. I was eating every 2 hours on the hour. I ate almost 7 times a day. I'm sadly, struggling to do that again this time. I found that when I ate more frequently, my metabolism sped up. I was eating the right portions and was never hungry because I ate so often. I wish I could get this routine back but with me working 4 jobs, its almost nearly impossible. I have shifts where I cant eat for 4 hours at a time. I'm not even allowed to leave my station to go to the washroom sometimes which makes the job unpleasant.
It wasn't until the end of my journey last year that I realized how important breakfast is. Not so much having to do with the fact that it helps fuel your body, but I clued into the fact that you should eat your biggest meal in the morning so you can burn it off by night! It makes no sense to eat your biggest meal at night and then sleep on it. I am trying to eat breakfast now every morning.
Today I had
breakfast
1 yogurt cup on top of cereal
banana
lunch
salad wrap
dinner
big salad with
avocado
some potato
olive oil
lemon juice
red bell pepper
snacks
1 york shire pudding
a little chocolate

As you can see... I ate a lot today. And even though it is a lot, I stayed with in my calorie limit! I have my calorie limit set for me to lose 2 lbs a week just based on how much I consume. Today I learned that I'm most vulnerable at night time. As soon as I come home from being out at around 12 am, I feel like eating. Most of the time I'm hungry but regardless I should not be eating this late at night. Tomorrow I want to work on not eating at night because its becoming unnecessary when I'm just going to sleep anyways. Its food I don't need to be eating.
I currently have 3 followers! Thank you once again so much for subscribing! We're in it together!
By the way, I'll be posting a video soon explaining how I gained the weight back soon on YouTube. I've had a lot of questions about it and am more than happy to explain.
Until then!
Tishy205

Monday, January 4, 2010

January 3rd - Calorie Counting but not...

Hey guys!
Recently I've found this cool application on my iTOUCH. Its something that counts your days average calories. I don't believe in calorie counting much. I know it works but its a hassle and not realistic unless you have tons of time on your hand. We arent robots, we should be able to control ourselves. My goal is to self discover my own limits. So what I've done is every time I eat something, I've been logging it. I have a general estimate of how much I can eat each day. I know this is basically calorie counting but right now, its just to teach me how much I can eat each day. I feel like I'm re learning how to eat. You have to budget! You find that if you eat healthier... you eat less calories. Its only when you splurge on junk food that you use up all your necessary daily intake. Meaning... I can eat 3 apples, 2 bananas, a salad, a veggie wrap AND soup all for the same calories it takes to have a meal at MCDONALDS. Its about making the right choices.
Today I went to the super market to pick up some yogurt. I purposely picked up the individual cups because I knew if I bought a tub, I wouldn't know my limits. This way, each little cup is about 80 cal and I can pour that over a sliced apple or banana! Its really yummy.
I did go ice skating today! God, what an experience. Prince charming brought his little sister (shes 6) and even she could out skate me'! I was hoping my lack of ability to skate would help me burn more calories. Unfortunately, before we went, his mom bought us pizza. But get this!!! I only had 1 slice and 2 bites. Can you believe that? This is coming from a girl who not even 2 weeks ago ate a whole medium pizza to herself, religiously. I had one slice and by the second one I didn't want it... complete progress! And since I had that pizza, I ended up eating super healthy the rest of the day. I do see today as an accomplishment.
Today I ate:
Some pizza
2 wraps
popcorn
apple
1 yogurt cup
2 banana
sunflower seeds
It doesn't look like much does it? Its actually quite a bit. I was at someones house when I noticed that I'm just a compulsive eater. I do it for fun. My mouth needs to keep moving. So I also went out and bought some gum and although I may look like a cow for chewing it so often now it defiantly reminds me that I'm not hungry, just bored. Sunflower seeds do the same. I sit there and peel some BUT you have to be careful because they are high in calories! I'm going to start introducing veggies to my menu. I can handle sweet fruits but I do admit that I don't eat veggies regularly. We'll work on that. By the way, you have probably noticed that I eat wraps a lot. That's because they are SO easy to make. And on my fast paced day, balancing 4 jobs, I rarely have time to plan out what I'm eating. I'm also working on that :P
And I've also noticed that I have my first follower on here!! Yay, even if I have one person reading, thats enough to keep me going, so thank you so much for subscribing!
Anyways, Untill tomorrow!!! :)
Tishy205

Saturday, January 2, 2010

January 2nd - Focus on eating

Hey guys! Today was a great day. My main goal in the next week to week and a half will be just learning to how eat properly again! You can only imagine how hard this is until you've tried it yourself. I feel like I should be going to Wendys or MC Donalds when ever I leave the house. Sadly, that's what I've taught myself to feel during the last 6 months. I'll update on my exercise method later on, but for now, in the next week, eating right is my main focus.
I do however plan to try something new each week. This week I've decided to go ice skating just for the fun of it. Even though my actual exercise routine wont be starting until a week or two from now, I still want to get into trying new things.
Today I ate
2 wraps
-romaine lettuce
-salsa
-whole wheat tortillas
2 bananas
1 apple
18 mini eggs (200 cal)

I know you guys have probably been noticing how I've not cut carbs or all fats out of my diet. And I'm sure you've noticed that I had a snack of MINI EGGS today. That is because I don't believe in eliminating everything out of my diet. You need certain things to function and grow. You NEED carbs. You need VEGETABLES! The idea is just to limit them. People who do NO CARB diets make things unnatural. They are on the diet to lose weight and fast! My method is more about learning new life lessons and KEEPING the weight off. You can not live your entire life with no carbs... so why make yourself suffer in the mean time. Like I said. This week is about learning how to eat properly, and I don't see any harm in feeding myself 200 cal instead of the 600 cal super sized fries from mc donalds that I usually would do for a snack. I'm making progress and that's what this is about. We also do not want to under eat! That is very important to me. Under eating is unhealthy.
A normal day for me in the last 6 months would have been anywhere from pasta for breakfast, 2 chocolate bars for lunch with some wendys (veggie burger and fries) and then maybe pizza for dinner, oh and please don't forget the multiple liters of ice tea I drank a day. I didn't make things easy on myself and im not proud of it. It has a lot to do with the fact that my prince charming never has to worry about his weight. I felt like I could eat anything and everything he did, the evidence of that being wrong began to show in my body. I was paying for it physically.

So my note to myself - Don't worry about the physical activity until next week. Worry about eating right now.

January 1st 2010!

Wow what a great way to start off the new year. The list gets bigger with all the things I want to do this year! Unfortunately, with last night being new years eve, by the time I got off work, there were no super markets open to stalk up on my new healthy food.
I went to work this morning and finally got a chance in-between two of my jobs. Everything I bought was healthy.
Cucumber, alfalfa sprouts, romaine lettuce, apples, bananas, etc.
I bought things that would only last me a couple of days. That way, I can go and buy new foods every so often to match what I'm craving. You want to eat them while their nutrients is at its highest point. This is why I buy organic foods.
Today I consumed
2 bananas
a fruit salad consisting of
-grapes
-orange
-pineapple
-grape fruit
and 2 salad wraps made of
-romaine lettuce
-olive oil
-lemon juice
2 cups of popcorn twisties - 150 cal
I remember when I was obsessed with the taste of ranch dressing. It was smothered all over my veggies as I would call myself "healthy" for eating it. Now, I cant stand the taste of ranch. As good as it may taste, its terribly bad for you. I work at a doctors office and the doctor taught me that you could add olive oil and lemon juice to a salad as your dressing. It was so good! Throw in a little romaine, avocado, red pepper, raisins and onion and you have such a great salad!
Oh by the way, did I mention.... I'm a vegetarian? :)
I'm trying this whole thing where I try to consume more litres of water so I bought a 1 litre bottle and today I only had 1L. My goal is to get to 3 of those a day. I'm not the biggest fan of drinking water for fun but I'll get used to it again, as I did last year.
AND FOR TODAY'S TEMPTATIONS:
-2 people offered to buy me tim hortons at work today, I kindly turned down the offer.
-I had a craving for chips but PURPOSELY left my debit card out of reach, which made me remember that I was on a new health kick. It only made me smile, because the trick I played on myself worked!
-and lastly, mum made pizza for dinner. No thank you!

Well that was day 1! Keep it sort and simple. I'll be introducing my technique on how I avoid the plateau as long as I can in a blog tomorrow! Stay tuned guys!