Do you deal with people telling you are fat every single day? Probably not. And if you do, chances are that its not by your own mother. I wish I would atleast be able to say that it was with words of love in a kind simple tone. Instead I get it yelling to the point where I feel like crying.
If you are going through what I am... just know that you're not alone.
Verbal abuse is hard to take... but its ok. Just keep your chin up.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
February 20th - Night waiting at the hospital
Last night we went to a hockey game from 5pm to 10 pm where prince charmings cousin was playing... he ended up breaking his arm during the game. We had to get him to emergency and wait 3 hours to be told that he had to come back in the morning to have the bones re-aligned.
In the morning he ended up having to have surgery. Because of the unexpected emergency, I didn't have time for exercise... it was already too late at night. We got home around 2am
In the morning he ended up having to have surgery. Because of the unexpected emergency, I didn't have time for exercise... it was already too late at night. We got home around 2am
Saturday, February 20, 2010
February 19th - 2010 olympics made me walk!
lol So today we went to see the 2010 Olympics and it was quite the thing to see. Everything was packed and I got to go on a sky train for the first time since I was like 5! Super super exciting!
We must have walked like 4 hours worth... I was exhausted by the time I got home that I passed out.
I have no idea what I'll do today for exercise... maybe roller blading or something. We'll see :P
Gosh I'm craving one of my salads.
OMG while in Vancouver there was this place in the mall where you could make your own salad!! It was so weird lol so I did it :P My salad ended up coming to like 9 bucks though :( What a jip. I could have made like 3 of my own salads for the same prince lol. It was my first time though so I had really no indication of what my salad may come out to be $. Next time I'll pick toppings that weigh less lol since they charge by weight.
Anyways take care!
We must have walked like 4 hours worth... I was exhausted by the time I got home that I passed out.
I have no idea what I'll do today for exercise... maybe roller blading or something. We'll see :P
Gosh I'm craving one of my salads.
OMG while in Vancouver there was this place in the mall where you could make your own salad!! It was so weird lol so I did it :P My salad ended up coming to like 9 bucks though :( What a jip. I could have made like 3 of my own salads for the same prince lol. It was my first time though so I had really no indication of what my salad may come out to be $. Next time I'll pick toppings that weigh less lol since they charge by weight.
Anyways take care!
Thursday, February 18, 2010
February 18th - 17 days to go!
17 days until my birthday and the end of my challenge.
I went swimming today and let me tell you that I'm catching up to when I was at 194.4lbs on Feb 12th. I weighed myself today and I was 198.2 so that's sooo good considering that on valentines day I went back up to 200. I only have 4 lbs to go until I'm back to where I was... That is a piece of cake. I can almost taste it.
And after I lose these 4 lbs... I only have 4 more to be in the 180's! OMG so exciting!
I'm really happy that progress is happening even if its slow.
I can feel myself changing. I'm no longer craving that "stuffing" feeling. When I was eating veggie burgers and fries I would like 2 or 3 servings. I would eat until it hurt. Now I can feel the moderation change. I eat every 2 hours on the hour.
I feel so much better then yesterday. I've also decided to take mini clips of every day just saying what I did each day for exercise. AT the end of the week I'm going to post a video and hopefully it will let me get back into posting videos again :)
The body is so funny. When it doesn't like what you are putting into it... it makes you fat. What a way to get back at you eh? ;) I don't think that the tongue and the brain work together. :P
Tishy205
I went swimming today and let me tell you that I'm catching up to when I was at 194.4lbs on Feb 12th. I weighed myself today and I was 198.2 so that's sooo good considering that on valentines day I went back up to 200. I only have 4 lbs to go until I'm back to where I was... That is a piece of cake. I can almost taste it.
And after I lose these 4 lbs... I only have 4 more to be in the 180's! OMG so exciting!
I'm really happy that progress is happening even if its slow.
I can feel myself changing. I'm no longer craving that "stuffing" feeling. When I was eating veggie burgers and fries I would like 2 or 3 servings. I would eat until it hurt. Now I can feel the moderation change. I eat every 2 hours on the hour.
I feel so much better then yesterday. I've also decided to take mini clips of every day just saying what I did each day for exercise. AT the end of the week I'm going to post a video and hopefully it will let me get back into posting videos again :)
The body is so funny. When it doesn't like what you are putting into it... it makes you fat. What a way to get back at you eh? ;) I don't think that the tongue and the brain work together. :P
Tishy205
February 17th - Video Phobia?
I tried to make a video today... one of me talking. I spoke about so much but I just couldn't bring myself to post it. I feel like I have some insecurity on my shoulders. I used to be able to make videos on a whim and post them with in the hour of filming them. I now feel different. I feel brutally honest in some senses. I feel like I have so many people judging me now. So many people expecting me to tell them what to do and so many people watching to see if I can do it again. I feel like I'm too judgemental on my own as well.
I feel like this is no longer my journey alone.
I feel so overwhelmed... I think I'm PMS'ing lol.
Anyways... the only thing that we can do is hold on tight and keep pushing through.
Hopefully I can get back into regular videos again... Its something I want to do but I'm afraid for some reason...
I feel like this is no longer my journey alone.
I feel so overwhelmed... I think I'm PMS'ing lol.
Anyways... the only thing that we can do is hold on tight and keep pushing through.
Hopefully I can get back into regular videos again... Its something I want to do but I'm afraid for some reason...
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
February 16th - Bought new food
So I stalked up on lots of new foods. I went through my logs and as assumed... I'm going to be eating a lot of non processed foods.
Me and prince charming are going swimming in the morning. I did pretty good on my eating tonight. I think it was good for a first day.
I had pineapple, big salad, cheese sticks, nuts and then I had some desert... (probably not the best choice but its ok.) I also watched two new movies... Obsessed (with beyonce) and ONG bak! Both were really good :)
Anyways take care guys!
Me and prince charming are going swimming in the morning. I did pretty good on my eating tonight. I think it was good for a first day.
I had pineapple, big salad, cheese sticks, nuts and then I had some desert... (probably not the best choice but its ok.) I also watched two new movies... Obsessed (with beyonce) and ONG bak! Both were really good :)
Anyways take care guys!
Monday, February 15, 2010
February 15 - Time to read the old diary
So I've decided that I'm going to check my old history of my weight loss last year. While I was losing weight last year I logged down everything I ate. I hopefully can get back into routine with eating what I did... basically living off healthy food...:P
I was discussing with prince charming that the first time we went for sushi back in august, I didn't finish my food. I never finished my food. He usually had to force me to eat regularly because I just wouldn't eat when I wasn't hungry. I had a lot more self control back then... Its going to be work getting it back. I find it almost unbelievable that I could give up food before. The eating habits were so different!!!
Since my mom came back from India she lost 20 lb. Shes pushing it very hard to keep up with her weight loss. She walks every day and eats only healthy food now. I'm lucky that I have that support although more then not, I'm hearing about how I "should be trying to lose weight".
My birthday is in 3 weeks.... Are you ready?
I was discussing with prince charming that the first time we went for sushi back in august, I didn't finish my food. I never finished my food. He usually had to force me to eat regularly because I just wouldn't eat when I wasn't hungry. I had a lot more self control back then... Its going to be work getting it back. I find it almost unbelievable that I could give up food before. The eating habits were so different!!!
Since my mom came back from India she lost 20 lb. Shes pushing it very hard to keep up with her weight loss. She walks every day and eats only healthy food now. I'm lucky that I have that support although more then not, I'm hearing about how I "should be trying to lose weight".
My birthday is in 3 weeks.... Are you ready?
February 14th - Valentines day
Today was a great day... I don't even know how to describe it with enough justice. I did work today but right after prince charming took me to dinner. I had such a great time. Starting with a salad and taking most of my dinner home. Prince charming gave me a present. He bought me a jewelry box and engraved " I love you" on the front and inside was a necklace shaped like a heart... the heart said "forever" on it. It was soooo cute!
After such a great night, I do plan on getting onto full gear tomorrow. Tomorrow is a new day... a new start... and for those of you who are continuing... don't give up... for those of you who have yet to start again... its never too late.
Take a deep breath and smile.. because tomorrow is our time to shine!
After such a great night, I do plan on getting onto full gear tomorrow. Tomorrow is a new day... a new start... and for those of you who are continuing... don't give up... for those of you who have yet to start again... its never too late.
Take a deep breath and smile.. because tomorrow is our time to shine!
Sunday, February 14, 2010
February 13th - Confidence
Why is it that when you start to lose weight you gain confidence? Is it because you now know that you are in charge of your life? When I was 175 lbs I was SO confident in myself. Hell I even flirted and started going out a lot more. That exact feeling that I felt when I was 175 is something I crave to feel now. I look at myself and think... how the heck did I have the confidence to do that then? I have no idea. Does weight loss and confidence come hand in hand?
We'll find out... once I reach 175 again lol
We'll find out... once I reach 175 again lol
Saturday, February 13, 2010
February 12th - Are you ready?
I'm going to set a challenge for myself. For 15 days I'm going to go walking/jogging 5 days of the week. I remember last year, I lost most of my weight running. So I hope to do so again. I think the hard part is just getting into the routine.
Starting Feb 15th... the hardest part is the beginning!
We can do it!
Starting Feb 15th... the hardest part is the beginning!
We can do it!
Friday, February 12, 2010
February 11th - Valentines day is coming
I used to hate Valentines day. I ignored the fact that the world was changing into red and white colours. I didn't like the fact that I had never been in a relationship. And the thing was... it wasn't me. It just wasn't my time yet. Love is something that is unexplainable. It just happens... especially when you least expect it (so I've come to learn lol)
But for those of you who have valentine sweethearts, remember that... you have started this journey and come so far and you don't have to end it now. Make wise choices and order something that is healthy yet satisfying. Marinara sauces have less calories then a cream based sauce. Pre plan ahead of time what you think you may want so it doesn't cause a binge later.
Prove to yourself that you can make the right choices.
But for those of you who have valentine sweethearts, remember that... you have started this journey and come so far and you don't have to end it now. Make wise choices and order something that is healthy yet satisfying. Marinara sauces have less calories then a cream based sauce. Pre plan ahead of time what you think you may want so it doesn't cause a binge later.
Prove to yourself that you can make the right choices.
February 10th - Over all thoughts of calorie counting
Calorie counting is such a pain. I feel like I have to dedicate so much time for it. I have however become more cautious with what TYPES of things that I put into my mouth. I drink really low cal juice if I need something sweet instead of the pop cans I used to. I also know that there is always an alternate (as I stated in my previous post).
I've come to realize that calorie counting is beneficial overall if you can handle the constant logging. So it is a thumbs up for helping you change your life style!
I've come to realize that calorie counting is beneficial overall if you can handle the constant logging. So it is a thumbs up for helping you change your life style!
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
February 9th - Clean off your plate!!??
I'm trying to see the difference between the eating habits of healthy children compared to obese ones. Its quite obvious that to say that not only small children play sports. I was always quite big and I played soccer for 12 years. So to those statistics that told me I would be skinny if I ran a lot... you lied! lol.
Were any of you guys told to clean off your plate every night at dinner? or, as my mom would say, "people are starving in Africa!" And I would feel terrible. Even to this day I cant stand seeing people waste food! Prince charming on the other hand eats everything and more and never gains weight. I watch his little brother and sister sometimes. I offer them ice cream and candy and more then not they refuse. I offer them food and often ask if they are hungry and they almost always reply with no.
I tried to explain to prince charming that food is delicious... that it gives pleasure and that it makes me happy. He explained that he knew his limits and that if he ate too much it would hurt. This is why he can eat a burger and stop right after... where as... I ate 3 veggie burgers today.
I think I'm more willing to want to taste the food then he may be... I dont know. Further research is needed lol.
Anyways in conclusion, I'm still deciding on weather I should tell my children to lick their plates clean or to throw away good food. Children are very influential and one step now could mean the path they take the rest of their lives.
Were any of you guys told to clean off your plate every night at dinner? or, as my mom would say, "people are starving in Africa!" And I would feel terrible. Even to this day I cant stand seeing people waste food! Prince charming on the other hand eats everything and more and never gains weight. I watch his little brother and sister sometimes. I offer them ice cream and candy and more then not they refuse. I offer them food and often ask if they are hungry and they almost always reply with no.
I tried to explain to prince charming that food is delicious... that it gives pleasure and that it makes me happy. He explained that he knew his limits and that if he ate too much it would hurt. This is why he can eat a burger and stop right after... where as... I ate 3 veggie burgers today.
I think I'm more willing to want to taste the food then he may be... I dont know. Further research is needed lol.
Anyways in conclusion, I'm still deciding on weather I should tell my children to lick their plates clean or to throw away good food. Children are very influential and one step now could mean the path they take the rest of their lives.
Monday, February 8, 2010
February 8th - Too much school/work no exercise
I'm noticing with me trying to get back into the routine of going to school again I've completely ran against a wall (Thats what it feels like). It feels like I'm fighting to follow a routine and its proving to be work. When a diet/health plan seems like work... then you are very unlikely to succeed in the long run. My mom went to India a month ago and phoned me last night reminding me that the clothes she was buying for me weren't going to fit unless I lost weight again. She on the other hand lost 25 lbs in about a week. She went to this health camp and they basically starved her from my understanding... although she wants to continue with the "lifestyle" that they set her on. We'll see how long that lasts! No offense. I have faith but she lost it unhealthy and so its going to be hard.
This is almost a way for me to test out the fact that crash diets dont work (Although half of her day was spent exercising as well but small portions of food basically starved herself).
Tishy205
This is almost a way for me to test out the fact that crash diets dont work (Although half of her day was spent exercising as well but small portions of food basically starved herself).
Tishy205
February 7th - Bad digestion
Feel like youre not digesting well? Its probably because you arnt eating enough fruits and veggies. I went today and yesterday without going to the washroom and realized that its because I've stuck to processed foods. I think I'll try a veggie only week just to clean out my system or a 3 day soup cleanse. We'll see.
Tishy205
Tishy205
Sunday, February 7, 2010
February 6th - Slow progress? Time to change it up!
Ok. So now that I'm somewhat rested lol I'm going to begin again. I need to get back into fat blasting mode! I've come to realize just how wonderful prince charming is to me. The support he gives me is unbelievable. I only wish more progress was happening. If I don't hurry, I'll be behind from last year.
Anyways Tomorrow is continuation of the 28 day challenge I set for myself :)
Take care, and have fun guys!
Anyways Tomorrow is continuation of the 28 day challenge I set for myself :)
Take care, and have fun guys!
February 5th - A break is needed
I've come to realize that pushing your body extremely hard is just not a smart thing to do. I was going swimming every day, rollerblading every other day... and working every day. I just wiped myself out and its no wonder that I've been dieing for more sleep and food.
Its now my second day in a row that I haven't exercised. If you think about it.. out of 4 weeks... to not take 1 break from exercise... that's pretty extreme. I've come to realize that come Sunday I'll get back on track with my exercise. I need this time to a little R&R.
So don't push it too hard guys... its just gonna lead to you passing out lol No matter how much you love the exercise you are doing.
Its now my second day in a row that I haven't exercised. If you think about it.. out of 4 weeks... to not take 1 break from exercise... that's pretty extreme. I've come to realize that come Sunday I'll get back on track with my exercise. I need this time to a little R&R.
So don't push it too hard guys... its just gonna lead to you passing out lol No matter how much you love the exercise you are doing.
Friday, February 5, 2010
February 4th - Difference in body but not on scale?
I can actually see my curves now. I look at myself in the mirror and appreciate how my body looks. I have the shape I want now. I just need to lose the pounds to be more proportioned. I think because this is my second time around, I have more appreciation for my body. I know not to over react and to take things easy. Its funny because I see the difference in my body but I don't see the numbers going down. I don't know if the exercises I'm doing is plateauing... (it shouldn't be so soon) But I need to do something about this quick.
Do any of you feel like you are a lower weight then the scale says? I never really knew how big I was until I saw proof of pictures from a family vacation in 2008. It hit me pretty hard. I feel like I'm 190 right now but really I'm 194.2. I hope that by Sunday I can clean out my system because I feel like everything is super clogged up. I'm looking for a good way to flush out but am still looking for a good detox as well.
Today was the only day so far from my 28 day challenge that I didn't exercise. I've been so tired lately... I think I'm just pushing it too hard with work and stuff. I can honestly say that I've done 15 days straight of exercise and that's something to be proud of. I've exercised in the rain even and that's dedication lol.
I also feel like I want to start posting more videos. At the same time I feel like my self confidence is not as high as it will be when I am around 185... I remember last year my self confidence boosted up super high around this weight. I was fitting into smaller clothes and just overall was much happier. I'm slowly getting into putting on make up and stuff again. I do it when I have time and stuff. I think I have an eye infection right now though because my left eye hurts in the corner. It hurts so bad that I'm scared to put in my contacts which is fine... lol. "less work"
I'm also feeling very uneasy because its my friends birthday on the 26th of feb and my birthday is on the 7th of march... so that's about a week and a half difference from me going clubbing. I missed a whole year of clubbing due to being younger then all my friends. I feel frustrated because I cant go... but at the same time the whole jolt for me wanting to lose weight was so I could look good again for stuff like clubbing and feeling more confident and stuff. I feel like one of my friends isn't as close as she once was. I feel like shes not really dependable which is sad actually. People change over time... its part of life... it sucks.I guess I just feel super restricted right now.
Anyways good luck staying on track :)
Tishy205
Do any of you feel like you are a lower weight then the scale says? I never really knew how big I was until I saw proof of pictures from a family vacation in 2008. It hit me pretty hard. I feel like I'm 190 right now but really I'm 194.2. I hope that by Sunday I can clean out my system because I feel like everything is super clogged up. I'm looking for a good way to flush out but am still looking for a good detox as well.
Today was the only day so far from my 28 day challenge that I didn't exercise. I've been so tired lately... I think I'm just pushing it too hard with work and stuff. I can honestly say that I've done 15 days straight of exercise and that's something to be proud of. I've exercised in the rain even and that's dedication lol.
I also feel like I want to start posting more videos. At the same time I feel like my self confidence is not as high as it will be when I am around 185... I remember last year my self confidence boosted up super high around this weight. I was fitting into smaller clothes and just overall was much happier. I'm slowly getting into putting on make up and stuff again. I do it when I have time and stuff. I think I have an eye infection right now though because my left eye hurts in the corner. It hurts so bad that I'm scared to put in my contacts which is fine... lol. "less work"
I'm also feeling very uneasy because its my friends birthday on the 26th of feb and my birthday is on the 7th of march... so that's about a week and a half difference from me going clubbing. I missed a whole year of clubbing due to being younger then all my friends. I feel frustrated because I cant go... but at the same time the whole jolt for me wanting to lose weight was so I could look good again for stuff like clubbing and feeling more confident and stuff. I feel like one of my friends isn't as close as she once was. I feel like shes not really dependable which is sad actually. People change over time... its part of life... it sucks.I guess I just feel super restricted right now.
Anyways good luck staying on track :)
Tishy205
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
February 3rd - Unexpected weight gain
Does anyone else fear the thought that they gained? I feel the same way. I almost have come to the point where I don't want to weigh myself because if I went up in numbers I'll feel like my whole week was waisted. I've also come to find that certain foods make me unable go to the washroom. I went to a new sushi place on Monday and since haven't been able to go to the washroom. I gained 3 pounds due to it! (I know too much shared but this journey is about learning how your body works.) Main point... I'm not going there anymore. Anyways SO what I'm trying to say is that its nearly impossibly to even gain .5 of a pound with one day of binging. You need to consume 3500 calories MORE THEN WHAT YOU EAT IN A DAY... so basically eating 6500 calories a day to gain a pound. HIGHLY unlikely. So if you gained... no sweat.. you probably just need to go to the washroom lol.
I've also been eating a lot of SUBWAY lately. I get it almost every day or every other day. A veggie delight is low in calories but my dark side needs the south west sauce. I LOVE IT.
Working out has been strong. I'm almost 2 weeks down with only 2 more to go! Can you believe it? Everything is happening sooo fast! Valentines day is just around the corner!
I've also been eating a lot of SUBWAY lately. I get it almost every day or every other day. A veggie delight is low in calories but my dark side needs the south west sauce. I LOVE IT.
Working out has been strong. I'm almost 2 weeks down with only 2 more to go! Can you believe it? Everything is happening sooo fast! Valentines day is just around the corner!
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
February 2nd - Did you take a shower today?
Have you noticed your appearance slowly disintegrate? I sure have ahah. When I was 175-170... even 180lbs I noticed I took care of my appearance. You can even see the proof in my videos. Even now I've come to find that every day I will wear my glasses and I don't care much about my make up anymore. The bigger I got... the more discouraged I got. BUT as the weight comes off slowly, I'm starting to feel proud and happy. Prince charming hugged me the other day in the pool and said he felt a difference in my size. I couldn't help but smile. Its funny because he does everything I do as support. But when we weighed him, he gained a pound lol. Our bodies are all so different its insane... SHEESH! You never know what they want! lol.
Anyways so at work a couple of days ago I decided to put in my contacts and pretty up my face a bit! One of the older sales associates comes up to me and says he likes my hair..."looks like you actually showered today!" He smiles at me.
WTFFFFF lol I felt sooo bad about myself right after that. I mentioned what he said to my friend (the ex chubby) yesterday and she laughed and said that hes said that to her before too. God! FOR YOU MEN out there reading this take my advice and DONT SAY THAT TO A GIRL! That's terrible lol.
Anyways appearance can mean a lot. It means a lot even if you are big or small. It shows you take care of yourself and its actually a big factor in the whole mating ritual that humans do. (Read it in a magazine!) Men like women who look after themselves apparently?!?! aha
Ok anyways so I'm starting school again and so I'll be changing my availability for all my work jobs. Hopefully I can focus more on my weight loss and school. Working 4 jobs is really stressful. I understand that the money wont be pouring in as much but that's something that's not important right now. Anyways Wish me luck!! :)
Tishy205
Anyways so at work a couple of days ago I decided to put in my contacts and pretty up my face a bit! One of the older sales associates comes up to me and says he likes my hair..."looks like you actually showered today!" He smiles at me.
WTFFFFF lol I felt sooo bad about myself right after that. I mentioned what he said to my friend (the ex chubby) yesterday and she laughed and said that hes said that to her before too. God! FOR YOU MEN out there reading this take my advice and DONT SAY THAT TO A GIRL! That's terrible lol.
Anyways appearance can mean a lot. It means a lot even if you are big or small. It shows you take care of yourself and its actually a big factor in the whole mating ritual that humans do. (Read it in a magazine!) Men like women who look after themselves apparently?!?! aha
Ok anyways so I'm starting school again and so I'll be changing my availability for all my work jobs. Hopefully I can focus more on my weight loss and school. Working 4 jobs is really stressful. I understand that the money wont be pouring in as much but that's something that's not important right now. Anyways Wish me luck!! :)
Tishy205
February 1st - Aqua FIT + Pizza?
Lol so today I did my first aqua fit class. Its like and aerobics class in water! And I took a nap after and when I woke up, my whole body hurt sooo bad! I must have gotten a great work out. The instructor said that our class today was equivalent of sprinting 16 mins worth lol. Very cool! The whole class itself took 45 mins with a 10 min stretch at the end.
I've also posted new videos on YouTube. My total weight loss for January is 11 pounds. I plan to lose no less then 9 lbs this month because then I will be at 185! Defiantly do-able lol.
I've checked my weight loss schedule from last year and technically last year I took two breaks. The breaks consisted of a week each and then about 2 weeks to get back on track. So if I push it hard and take no breaks... I'll be losing weight faster then I did last year.
My whole inspiration to losing weight fast this time is because of my birthday. All my friends are older then me. I'm not 19 yet so while all my friends go clubbing... I cant. I'm not saying that I'm some party animal... but I have to miss out on alot of things. With my birthday in march, I want to look damn fineeee for my bday lol.
So yesterday for work we did a full count of the store. It took us about 7 hours! It was late so we all got treated to pizza. Even though I haven't been eating that type of junk for 2 weeks now... I had no hesitation to have a piece. I felt great! I was starving and needed food anyways. I was happy! Not because I was eating pizza, but because I had done so well these past two weeks and I could afford to eat it without worry! Now... if you have been keeping up with my previous posts you may have read something about a (ex chubby) friend of mine who lost weight :P So anyways... she comes and sits down and everyone asks her if shes going to eat pizza. She says no and tells us that she had dinner already a couple of hours before. Now... how many of you would have taken at least 1 piece just to blend in? Temptation is something we all struggle with clearly... I thought about how she approached the scenario and couldn't stop thinking about it for hours. Its really different... big peoples eating habits from smaller peoples eating habits.
*mind you... her family owns a pizza store... so I don't know how that plays in.*
Anyways still staying strong with exercise and eating right!
Love, Tishy205
I've also posted new videos on YouTube. My total weight loss for January is 11 pounds. I plan to lose no less then 9 lbs this month because then I will be at 185! Defiantly do-able lol.
I've checked my weight loss schedule from last year and technically last year I took two breaks. The breaks consisted of a week each and then about 2 weeks to get back on track. So if I push it hard and take no breaks... I'll be losing weight faster then I did last year.
My whole inspiration to losing weight fast this time is because of my birthday. All my friends are older then me. I'm not 19 yet so while all my friends go clubbing... I cant. I'm not saying that I'm some party animal... but I have to miss out on alot of things. With my birthday in march, I want to look damn fineeee for my bday lol.
So yesterday for work we did a full count of the store. It took us about 7 hours! It was late so we all got treated to pizza. Even though I haven't been eating that type of junk for 2 weeks now... I had no hesitation to have a piece. I felt great! I was starving and needed food anyways. I was happy! Not because I was eating pizza, but because I had done so well these past two weeks and I could afford to eat it without worry! Now... if you have been keeping up with my previous posts you may have read something about a (ex chubby) friend of mine who lost weight :P So anyways... she comes and sits down and everyone asks her if shes going to eat pizza. She says no and tells us that she had dinner already a couple of hours before. Now... how many of you would have taken at least 1 piece just to blend in? Temptation is something we all struggle with clearly... I thought about how she approached the scenario and couldn't stop thinking about it for hours. Its really different... big peoples eating habits from smaller peoples eating habits.
*mind you... her family owns a pizza store... so I don't know how that plays in.*
Anyways still staying strong with exercise and eating right!
Love, Tishy205
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