February 7th - Bad digestion

Feel like youre not digesting well? Its probably because you arnt eating enough fruits and veggies. I went today and yesterday without going to the washroom and realized that its because I've stuck to processed foods. I think I'll try a veggie only week just to clean out my system or a 3 day soup cleanse. We'll see.

Tishy205

February 6th - Slow progress? Time to change it up!

Ok. So now that I'm somewhat rested lol I'm going to begin again. I need to get back into fat blasting mode! I've come to realize just how wonderful prince charming is to me. The support he gives me is unbelievable. I only wish more progress was happening. If I don't hurry, I'll be behind from last year.

Anyways Tomorrow is continuation of the 28 day challenge I set for myself :)
Take care, and have fun guys!

February 5th - A break is needed

I've come to realize that pushing your body extremely hard is just not a smart thing to do. I was going swimming every day, rollerblading every other day... and working every day. I just wiped myself out and its no wonder that I've been dieing for more sleep and food.
Its now my second day in a row that I haven't exercised. If you think about it.. out of 4 weeks... to not take 1 break from exercise... that's pretty extreme. I've come to realize that come Sunday I'll get back on track with my exercise. I need this time to a little R&R.

So don't push it too hard guys... its just gonna lead to you passing out lol No matter how much you love the exercise you are doing.

February 4th - Difference in body but not on scale?

I can actually see my curves now. I look at myself in the mirror and appreciate how my body looks. I have the shape I want now. I just need to lose the pounds to be more proportioned. I think because this is my second time around, I have more appreciation for my body. I know not to over react and to take things easy. Its funny because I see the difference in my body but I don't see the numbers going down. I don't know if the exercises I'm doing is plateauing... (it shouldn't be so soon) But I need to do something about this quick.

Do any of you feel like you are a lower weight then the scale says? I never really knew how big I was until I saw proof of pictures from a family vacation in 2008. It hit me pretty hard. I feel like I'm 190 right now but really I'm 194.2. I hope that by Sunday I can clean out my system because I feel like everything is super clogged up. I'm looking for a good way to flush out but am still looking for a good detox as well.

Today was the only day so far from my 28 day challenge that I didn't exercise. I've been so tired lately... I think I'm just pushing it too hard with work and stuff. I can honestly say that I've done 15 days straight of exercise and that's something to be proud of. I've exercised in the rain even and that's dedication lol.

I also feel like I want to start posting more videos. At the same time I feel like my self confidence is not as high as it will be when I am around 185... I remember last year my self confidence boosted up super high around this weight. I was fitting into smaller clothes and just overall was much happier. I'm slowly getting into putting on make up and stuff again. I do it when I have time and stuff. I think I have an eye infection right now though because my left eye hurts in the corner. It hurts so bad that I'm scared to put in my contacts which is fine... lol. "less work"

I'm also feeling very uneasy because its my friends birthday on the 26th of feb and my birthday is on the 7th of march... so that's about a week and a half difference from me going clubbing. I missed a whole year of clubbing due to being younger then all my friends. I feel frustrated because I cant go... but at the same time the whole jolt for me wanting to lose weight was so I could look good again for stuff like clubbing and feeling more confident and stuff. I feel like one of my friends isn't as close as she once was. I feel like shes not really dependable which is sad actually. People change over time... its part of life... it sucks.I guess I just feel super restricted right now.


Anyways good luck staying on track :)
Tishy205

February 3rd - Unexpected weight gain

Does anyone else fear the thought that they gained? I feel the same way. I almost have come to the point where I don't want to weigh myself because if I went up in numbers I'll feel like my whole week was waisted. I've also come to find that certain foods make me unable go to the washroom. I went to a new sushi place on Monday and since haven't been able to go to the washroom. I gained 3 pounds due to it! (I know too much shared but this journey is about learning how your body works.) Main point... I'm not going there anymore. Anyways SO what I'm trying to say is that its nearly impossibly to even gain .5 of a pound with one day of binging. You need to consume 3500 calories MORE THEN WHAT YOU EAT IN A DAY... so basically eating 6500 calories a day to gain a pound. HIGHLY unlikely. So if you gained... no sweat.. you probably just need to go to the washroom lol.

I've also been eating a lot of SUBWAY lately. I get it almost every day or every other day. A veggie delight is low in calories but my dark side needs the south west sauce. I LOVE IT.

Working out has been strong. I'm almost 2 weeks down with only 2 more to go! Can you believe it? Everything is happening sooo fast! Valentines day is just around the corner!

February 2nd - Did you take a shower today?

Have you noticed your appearance slowly disintegrate? I sure have ahah. When I was 175-170... even 180lbs I noticed I took care of my appearance. You can even see the proof in my videos. Even now I've come to find that every day I will wear my glasses and I don't care much about my make up anymore. The bigger I got... the more discouraged I got. BUT as the weight comes off slowly, I'm starting to feel proud and happy. Prince charming hugged me the other day in the pool and said he felt a difference in my size. I couldn't help but smile. Its funny because he does everything I do as support. But when we weighed him, he gained a pound lol. Our bodies are all so different its insane... SHEESH! You never know what they want! lol.

Anyways so at work a couple of days ago I decided to put in my contacts and pretty up my face a bit! One of the older sales associates comes up to me and says he likes my hair..."looks like you actually showered today!" He smiles at me.
WTFFFFF lol I felt sooo bad about myself right after that. I mentioned what he said to my friend (the ex chubby) yesterday and she laughed and said that hes said that to her before too. God! FOR YOU MEN out there reading this take my advice and DONT SAY THAT TO A GIRL! That's terrible lol.
Anyways appearance can mean a lot. It means a lot even if you are big or small. It shows you take care of yourself and its actually a big factor in the whole mating ritual that humans do. (Read it in a magazine!) Men like women who look after themselves apparently?!?! aha

Ok anyways so I'm starting school again and so I'll be changing my availability for all my work jobs. Hopefully I can focus more on my weight loss and school. Working 4 jobs is really stressful. I understand that the money wont be pouring in as much but that's something that's not important right now. Anyways Wish me luck!! :)

Tishy205

February 1st - Aqua FIT + Pizza?

Lol so today I did my first aqua fit class. Its like and aerobics class in water! And I took a nap after and when I woke up, my whole body hurt sooo bad! I must have gotten a great work out. The instructor said that our class today was equivalent of sprinting 16 mins worth lol. Very cool! The whole class itself took 45 mins with a 10 min stretch at the end.

I've also posted new videos on YouTube. My total weight loss for January is 11 pounds. I plan to lose no less then 9 lbs this month because then I will be at 185! Defiantly do-able lol.
I've checked my weight loss schedule from last year and technically last year I took two breaks. The breaks consisted of a week each and then about 2 weeks to get back on track. So if I push it hard and take no breaks... I'll be losing weight faster then I did last year.

My whole inspiration to losing weight fast this time is because of my birthday. All my friends are older then me. I'm not 19 yet so while all my friends go clubbing... I cant. I'm not saying that I'm some party animal... but I have to miss out on alot of things. With my birthday in march, I want to look damn fineeee for my bday lol.

So yesterday for work we did a full count of the store. It took us about 7 hours! It was late so we all got treated to pizza. Even though I haven't been eating that type of junk for 2 weeks now... I had no hesitation to have a piece. I felt great! I was starving and needed food anyways. I was happy! Not because I was eating pizza, but because I had done so well these past two weeks and I could afford to eat it without worry! Now... if you have been keeping up with my previous posts you may have read something about a (ex chubby) friend of mine who lost weight :P So anyways... she comes and sits down and everyone asks her if shes going to eat pizza. She says no and tells us that she had dinner already a couple of hours before. Now... how many of you would have taken at least 1 piece just to blend in? Temptation is something we all struggle with clearly... I thought about how she approached the scenario and couldn't stop thinking about it for hours. Its really different... big peoples eating habits from smaller peoples eating habits.
*mind you... her family owns a pizza store... so I don't know how that plays in.*

Anyways still staying strong with exercise and eating right!
Love, Tishy205